Music

All my life I have LOVED music.

I started singing at church at a very young age and when I was able to join choir at school I did. I had opportunities to sing solos in school as well as church. While I was young, I always thought I was good and it made me so happy to sing for others. Then I grew up.

The music died. The excitement died. I lost that feeling of love and confidence. Slowly I lost my voice. Until now.

I got married. I now have 4 kids and I enjoy singing them to sleep more than anything. I mostly sing primary songs (religious songs from the LDS children's book) but occasionally I will throw a few random songs in there. Even after they are asleep I will continue to sing. I am not sure if it's because they won't judge me or because no one else can hear me, either way it is my haven.

Music is emotional for me. I will tear up, get excited, solemn, or even mad when I hear music. It such a heightened feeling that is almost overwhelming. I can't explain the feelings that occur when I hear music. It just takes me to another place almost outside of myself and I can't help but internalize what is being said in the lyrics or even feel the beat in my bones. I LOVE music is an understatement.

Lately I have been feeling I need to go back to school but for what? I mean I am almost 34, what would I major in? I have been searching and praying for ideas or guidance, then I took this silly quiz on BuzzFeed.com titled "What is your hidden talent?" and lo and behold mine was MUSIC. I know what you're thinking, I can't base my decision on a silly quiz. You're right. It was just a little push to explore that major. So I will.

All I know is music is good for the soul. Music makes me happy. Music can change a mood almost instantly. It can bring people together. It can make my kids dance crazily around my living room. It can get my twins to stop what they are doing and dance. It can speak to our souls. It can bring answers to questions.

Whether I pursue it or not, it will always be a part of my life. It will always take me to a wonderful place and mean so much to me.

Here's a song that I have recently found and can't stop listening.

On top of the world